This past week I spent at lake Ray Roberts for Thanksgiving and was able to relax for the first time in a while. It was so nice to be away from the stresses of reality and just sleep. I was able to let my body relax from the pains that the past few weeks brought on. I was able to adjust to the new dossage of medications and finally just be at peace. I was away from internet all last week so I was not able to post updates or anything but I have just been dandy.
Now don't get me wrong, I still feel pain in my neck, head, and knees but its not at the level of OMGosh OMGosh just let me alone!. Its more like a Well, this ain't going away so just grin and bear it.
The hardiest thing for me right now though is living with the constant knowledge that this will never go away. I am having to learn to embrace it and not let this RA consume me, but become part of me, spread awareness and relief. I am grateful right now that my own condition is not as bad as some cases. I still have use of my hands and they have not become deformed as of now. Who knows, maybe the treatments I am doing will help prevent it from happening. I would like that. I can live with the swollen sausage fingers for now. My hands are my most valuable tool and I would hate to loose them.
I guess right now though my biggest concern is how to get the swelling down in my fingers. I hate not being able to wear my ctr ring due to circulation cut off. I would love tips for that. Also I need to start weight loss... I am not happy with the gain and just Don't know how to begin. Working out hurts due to my condition and the changing of diet just dosen't work for me. I really need help. I went from a size 4 to a size 12 in about a year.
I am starting to think that another factor to my achs has been the extra weight added but I am just so confused. I need the meds to feel better but the meds make me heavy and put more weight on my straining joints. its such an oxymoron.
Also, I am starting to show my pride of my condition. I am proud to sport the color purple, fly with the butterflies and fight like a girl!
1 comment:
Instead of trying to dramatically change things, start with somethings small. Instead of cutting something out replace it. Replace chips with apples and carrots or something small like that, take baby steps and you will be progressing before you know it.
Also I know the exercising doesn't work as well, but doing something small there will help you feel better as well. Sit on an exercise ball while you watch tv, carry a purse of rocks up and down the stairs with you, find something you can do that isn't easy, but isn't impossible for you either :)
keep fighting!
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